New Calling!

So Today we went to church and met with Brother Leavitt, to receive our new calling. Neither one of us could sleep very well Saturday night wondering what are going to be doing? Where are they going to put us? Is it going to be difficult with our children? Well after all the sleep-less night we went to church this morning and received the call to be Primary workers! Working in the Nursery. Our ward just split the Nursery between the older children and the younger. Very Smart!! We are in charge of the older group, So we get to be with both our girls and serve our Lord in a calling he set aside for us. We are very excited about this calling, I feel like its just what we needed right now in our lives. And with that being said I would just like to share a little bit of my Testimony. Over the last year or two,I have struggled with a lot of things that the Lord has put in my life ,It has been a very hard battle to keep my testimony strong and know that I still believed in his Love. At times I just wanted to give up and just say, No more I don't want to do this. I didn't have the strength any more to fight. So I guess in a sense I did Give Up. I stopped praying because I was so angry at Heavenly Father for allowing me to go through these awful things. Something of which I had never dealt with in my life. I stopped attending the temple,I hardly ever put the effort in to making it to church and showed little remorse that we didn't go.I thought to my self it's easier to just stay home and be lazy, and We no longer paid our tithing, I grew to be a very bitter person, I tried to blame everyone for the way my life was. Everything in my life was crashing very very fast, It was just one thing after another,And just when I thought things couldn't get worse, they always did!!!There were days that I didn't even care if I got out of bed or ate or slept,I felt that it didn't matter what I did anymore nothing was going to change or get better.I was in a very dark place,I knew that I had reached the end of my rope and things had to change, I knew that if they didn't my Marriage and My Family could not survive. I was sitting alone one night and stumbled across a beautiful story from a woman on her blog, that was explaining her situation,I read on and it was the very same thing that I had been going through, She explained how bitter she became and actually left the church for awhile. To this day I still do not know how I stumbled across her blog but I cried some many tears after reading her story, I felt like the Lord was speaking right to me through her words. It was right then and there that night that I realized that HE IS THERE and HE DOES LISTEN, HE WEEPS WHEN WE WEEP, and HE DOES WORK IN VERY MYSTERIOUS WAYS. I have heard that my whole life and now I know exactly what it means. It's always for OUR BENEFIT!! We always come out STRONGER than we were before. In closing, I just want to say I love my Savior very much and He and I are close again, I have started praying again,paying tithing,attending church and I'm so thankful for that. I know he loves me and has been with me every step of the way. At times I felt like he left me all alone, but I know that he didn't, He wanted me To LEARN, To GROW, and PROGRESS. I believe with all my heart that he's always there for us at any time.We just have to reach a point when we say we can't do it alone. To fall to our knees and pray for strength and for our burdens to be lifted off our shoulders, I also know that our prayers are not answered in the way that we want or as fast as we want but I do know he Does answer them. I have learned that I just need to let His Will be done, and I will accept whatever that may be. I believe that Heavenly Father has a plan for me, I feel like a new person and feel like I'm starting a New Chapter in my life and very excited to see what the future brings and I'm very grateful for that. I say these things, In the name of our Savior Jesus Christ,Amen. I found this song that explains exactly how I felt, It's beautifully song by Whitney Houston. go to track # 78 on my playlist.